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[alt_nymphadora]

Oh, luv.

Is today better?

I was glued to my journal last night, and knew that nothing I could say would make a jot of difference, but I hope you know I was with all of you. I'm sorry for what happened with the man who was Kissed, but all of you were brilliant.

It's been a hard few weeks, hasn't it? I find myself getting teary eyed and sweeping Bea up and hugging her til she wriggles at the oddest moments. And Bap is doing somersaults and flips like no-one else, too.

I'm so bloody grateful they're both hidden. They won't be forced to march in a parade with werewolves, or sing those awful songs, or watch people barely older than they are kill other people for sport ever. Or, in Bea's case, ever again, although she was too young to remember, really. Still. Having her in those stands during the Frost Faire nearly made me break in half.

I don't know how Molly, Alice, and Frank are still standing.

I don't.

And it's so deeply selfish of me, but I'm glad they won't be going anywhere near Hogwarts unless we've won.

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[alt_charlie]

Yeah. A little better. Still not fabulous. I just can't stop thinking about the look on his face, after. Or the not-look on his face.

I was the one doing the Patronus for our group, you know -- mine was the strongest. (I was using the moment I first felt the Bap kicking, as my happy memory. Guess it worked!) So it's on me, for putting him down, and for getting too far away from him.

I mean, on the one hand, I know it was just a mistake, and because we were trying to wrangle too many people with too few wands and trying to keep everyone together and not have them wander off and disappear down a dark dank hole and all. And everyone we got out -- all the ones who were in any shape to say, I mean -- told me they'd have rather been Kissed than spend one more day in there and anyone would've taken the risk. But I can't stop replaying it and wondering what I could've done differently.

And I don't think it's selfish, to be glad the kids aren't going anywhere near Hogwarts until we win. I think it's human. I don't know how Frank and Alice and Molly are doing it, either.

I think about it sometimes, you know. How nice it will be if Bea and the Bap wind up at Hogwarts with all the Muggleborn babies we rescued and, I don't know, you and Frank and Molly teaching there.

Actually, that sounds lovely, you know. I'll take Creatures. You can teach Transfig. We'll put Frank in Defence and Molly can teach Charms. Siz will want to go back for Astronomy, of course, and we can give Dumbledore back his position as Head, and Poppy her infirmary back. Think Snape would want to teach Potions? He's been teaching Hermione, after all.