Yeah. A little better. Still not fabulous. I just can't stop thinking about the look on his face, after. Or the not-look on his face.
I was the one doing the Patronus for our group, you know -- mine was the strongest. (I was using the moment I first felt the Bap kicking, as my happy memory. Guess it worked!) So it's on me, for putting him down, and for getting too far away from him.
I mean, on the one hand, I know it was just a mistake, and because we were trying to wrangle too many people with too few wands and trying to keep everyone together and not have them wander off and disappear down a dark dank hole and all. And everyone we got out -- all the ones who were in any shape to say, I mean -- told me they'd have rather been Kissed than spend one more day in there and anyone would've taken the risk. But I can't stop replaying it and wondering what I could've done differently.
And I don't think it's selfish, to be glad the kids aren't going anywhere near Hogwarts until we win. I think it's human. I don't know how Frank and Alice and Molly are doing it, either.
I think about it sometimes, you know. How nice it will be if Bea and the Bap wind up at Hogwarts with all the Muggleborn babies we rescued and, I don't know, you and Frank and Molly teaching there.
Actually, that sounds lovely, you know. I'll take Creatures. You can teach Transfig. We'll put Frank in Defence and Molly can teach Charms. Siz will want to go back for Astronomy, of course, and we can give Dumbledore back his position as Head, and Poppy her infirmary back. Think Snape would want to teach Potions? He's been teaching Hermione, after all.
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I was the one doing the Patronus for our group, you know -- mine was the strongest. (I was using the moment I first felt the Bap kicking, as my happy memory. Guess it worked!) So it's on me, for putting him down, and for getting too far away from him.
I mean, on the one hand, I know it was just a mistake, and because we were trying to wrangle too many people with too few wands and trying to keep everyone together and not have them wander off and disappear down a dark dank hole and all. And everyone we got out -- all the ones who were in any shape to say, I mean -- told me they'd have rather been Kissed than spend one more day in there and anyone would've taken the risk. But I can't stop replaying it and wondering what I could've done differently.
And I don't think it's selfish, to be glad the kids aren't going anywhere near Hogwarts until we win. I think it's human. I don't know how Frank and Alice and Molly are doing it, either.
I think about it sometimes, you know. How nice it will be if Bea and the Bap wind up at Hogwarts with all the Muggleborn babies we rescued and, I don't know, you and Frank and Molly teaching there.
Actually, that sounds lovely, you know. I'll take Creatures. You can teach Transfig. We'll put Frank in Defence and Molly can teach Charms. Siz will want to go back for Astronomy, of course, and we can give Dumbledore back his position as Head, and Poppy her infirmary back. Think Snape would want to teach Potions? He's been teaching Hermione, after all.